The Last Five Years

by MilØ

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released October 27, 2015

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Track Name: Camel Turkish Royals and Bullshit
I think about the future at times and get really depressed,
Realizing I'm almost twenty and can barely even get dressed.
In the mornings I stumble around this room until I fall back asleep.
The things you say while you snore are the secrets that I keep.

Figuring out a game plan while living in apathy,
Coming up with a process to figure out what's wrong with me.
Drinking wine up like a fish and my head nailed to a board,
Far too young to hate everything but still feeling so ignored.

The organization of my thoughts never stays quite the same,
I always change my identity therefore I don't know my real name.
I promise I'll figure it out if you come along with me,
Because next to curly hair and leather jackets is where I want to be.

So let's smoke another bowl,
And I'll try to catch my breath.
You smoke a lot of cigarettes,
I mumble to myself.

But I can sorta fit in your tshirts,
And you sorta understand,
Why I still get nervous
When I try to hold your hand.
Track Name: Nightmare Girl
Baby can't you see that I'm close to suicide?
While you seem to sit and pass me by.
I always try my best to give you the world.
But to you I'll always be your little nightmare girl.
Oh, oh.

I'm crawling on the ground baby, help me up.
You only seem to care if it fills your cup.
I walk around on eggshells just to make you glad.
But you never seem to notice if you make me sad.
Oh, oh.

Baby I hope one day you notice and you'll sing a long.
When I'm dead and gone, will you sing this song?
Lover sing it loud in my memory.
And think of the love you never gave to me.

We love inside a game of mental war.
I'll never be as lovely as your internet whores.
A girl can only sit around and wait for so long,
Until she throws her heart away and writes you a song.
Oh, oh.

Baby I need some loving, can you hold me please?
I always itch your scratch but you never fill my needs.
I lay low and I'm loyal but I'm starting to cry.
Maybe you'll finally notice me when I die.

Baby I hope one day you notice and you'll sing a long.
When I'm dead and gone, will you sing this song?
Lover sing it loud in my memory.
And think of the love you never gave to me.

Baby can't you see that I'm close to suicide?
While you seem to sit and pass me by.
I always try my best to give you the world.
But to you I'll always be your little nightmare girl.
Track Name: Pawn Shops
I feel like a waste.
With my books and my posters.
Boxes and guitars,
Trying to make, this bedroom a home.
But I still feel so alone.

I've had a few jobs,
We sold drugs for money.
I missed my car payment,
Now we're back at square one.
The truth chills me to the bone.

You finally told me, how you've been feeling.
I'm too much to handle, we're no longer dreaming.
I'm co-dependent, and you like alone time.
But I swear I'll love you until you stop breathing.

I dropped out of college,
Tried to get us an apartment.
Finally realizing, that you don't
Want me at all.
My back's pressed up against the wall.

You got a hair cut,
Bought a nice dress shirt.
Applied for a few jobs,
Didn't find one, but to no avail.
I loved you just as well.

You finally told me, how you've been feeling.
I'm too much to handle, we're no longer dreaming.
I'm co-dependent, and you like alone time.
But I swear I'll love you until you stop breathing.

I pawned my guitar,
Sold my playstation.
I felt so alone
Then it hit, right to the core.
You don't love me anymore.

You finally told me, how you've been feeling.
I'm too much to handle, we're no longer dreaming.
I'm co-dependent, and you like alone time.
But I swear I'll love you until you stop breathing.
Track Name: Five Years
And I will bide my time, for you.
And I will get this right, for you.
And I will always fight, for you.
But what would you do for me?

I spent the last five years, in a mental war.
Constantly at battle with your internet poi-
Son is all we'll ever be. Toxic beauty,
I would have died for you.

I lost my self esteem, fearless grip on reality.
Now I'm constantly in a struggle, with who I am.
Trying to figure out, if there is a bigger plan.
But to you I'm just someone to hole your fucking hand.

And I will bide my time, for you.
And I will get this right, for you.
And I will always fight, for you.
But what would you do for me?

I spent the last five years, afraid to be alone.
Waiting for an answer, waiting for a fucking home.
I spent the last five years, wearing hole in my shoes.
Walking down the train tracks that tie me to you.

I spent the last five years, trying to get this right.
Waking every morning, to another fight.
You swore I wasn't good enough, you swore you'd always care.
I'll spend the next five years remembering how you were never there.

And I will bide my time, for you.
And I will get this right, for you.
And I will always fight, for you.
But you didn't do shit for me.

I'll spend the next five years forgetting your name.
The next five years, forgetting how you blamed me
For everything, stuff out of my control.
I'll forget about you but I hope you die alone.

Now I will bide my time, for me.
And I will get this right, for me.
And I will always fight, for me.
And I will learn to forget about you.
Track Name: As Tall As Cliffs, Margot and the Nuclear So and So's (cover)
I tell tales, tall as cliffs, you've got a lisp
Kid, those things are hard to miss
When you're drunk you just make love.
Honey please, like you've got somewhere to be.

But I can't bear to hear, the things about last year,
I've been up all night. x2

And you came well equipped
With a gun on your hip and some poison on your lips
But when we wake up in our make up
We'll be clean, we won't have nowhere to be

Oh, but I can't talk to you the way I've wanted to
I've been tellin' lies but I'll tell you the truth
Oh, I can't talk to you the way I've wanted to
I've been tellin' lies but I'll tell you the truth

Darling, I'm tired and I should be leaving, leaving
You know I'm tired and I should be leaving, leaving tonight

Darling, I'm tired and I should be leaving, leaving
You know I'm tired and I should be leaving
Track Name: Feel Good Inc- The Gorillaz (cover)
City's breaking down on a camel's back.

Windmill, windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sinking, falling down
Love forever, love is free
Let's turn forever, you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?

Laughing gas these hazmats, fast cats,
Lining them up like ass cracks,
Lay these ponies at the track
It's my chocolate attack.
Shit, I'm stepping in the heart of this here
Care bear reppin' it harder this year
Watch me as I gravitate
Hahahahahahaa.

Yo, we gonna go ghost town,
This motown,
With your sound
You're in the blink
Gonna bite the dust
Can't fight with us
With your sound
You kill the INC.
So don't stop, get it, get it
Until you cheddar head it.
Yo, watch the way I navigate
Hahahahahhaa

Feel good [x4]

Windmill, windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sinking, falling down
Love forever, love is free
Let's turn forever, you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?

Don't stop, shit it, get it
We are your captains in it
Steady,
Watch me navigate,
Ahahahahahhaa.
Don't stop, shit it, get it
We are your captains in it
Steady,
Watch me navigate
Ahahahahahhaa.

Feel good, ahhhhahahahaha
Feel good,
Feel good, ahhhhahahahaha
Feel good...